now everyone seems to want to try and get me to seminary. i don't really know how i feel about it at this point, considering my patience with schoolwork is wearing thin, even with such an easy load of coursework in this program. i can't really bring myself to imagine going through the stress and trial of seminary work, learning two more languages when i'm having a hard enough time with one, and just the general discipline. maybe i'm just too comfortable, too lazy, too something. a few years ago, i would've jumped at the opportunity, but now i feel like it's out of reach.
maybe it is, but maybe it isn't.
i'm thinking about it. i'll give it honest consideration, but right now i can't envision myself honestly sitting down and saying 'alright, let's stay in the states for another three years so i can finish a very expensive master's degree program.' maybe it's because i put it like that, but that makes it seem so much worse than it probably is. i could be worrying for nothing, or just be building myself up so i've convinced myself that it's a bad idea. maybe i'm selfishly giving in to the fact that i'm pining for hong kong so much that i'd do just about anything to get out there as soon as possible — even work at another english centre.
either way, i'm not sure how it would work out. having my wife bring home the majority of our income has been working sufficiently for us for this year, but she has expressed that she would rather not continue doing it for an extended period of time [and understandably so]. i don't mind working, but if i were to take on a seminary course load, and do it right and get it done on time, i would not be able to work at the same time. and i'd have to move back to southern california if i wanted to go to the best school [which i would because i would view anything else as bordering on a waste of time and money], which produces all manner of problems. indecisive, abruptly ending blog over.
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