i feel sick, my head hurts, my day was wasted, i cried today for the first time in a long while. and that was not a real sentence. this won't be long. nostalgia is eating me alive. i'm sitting here at four in the morning, reading wikipedia articles about hong kong, wishing i were there and that i spoke cantonese fluently. i know i'll get back, i know. reading up on lost made me think of it somehow, and reading friends' posts made it even clearer. i don't like being here. this country is no longer home. i don't feel welcome here.
tomorrow i will be going to the mva to register my vehicle with money i don't have. next month i will be moving to a new place and i have no idea how we're going to manage the first month's rent when christin's paycheck from this month is being deducted for rent for this past month. i need a job, and at this point i'm going to be stopping by the mall to get something seasonal, just so we can make some progress financially. we need to be ahead, not behind. student loans are one thing, but debt from the past that just won't seem to die... that's a killer.
that sucks..... All I can say is your in my prayers that you find a job this weekend and will be able to relax on the thought of paying rent.
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