considering, thinking, wishing, hoping, missing, longing, desiring, returning, remembering, laughing, enjoying, pausing, sighing. a sentence which is not a sentence which makes sense only in my mind. why do i commit such things to print, or in this case text publishing? because this blog should be, to some extent, an outpouring of what i think, feel, do and live. this is today, essentially. granted, you could throw in 'cleaning' and 'watching', but they didn't fit the theme. i'm currently torn between the logically superior route and the agonizing pain of being so far from home.
ambiguity can be fun, but it's usually just frustrating.
i watched a few videos from a friend on youtube, he's in japan right now, and it really made me miss asia and think about hong kong even more than i already was. i've been thinking about it a lot. my dad says 'whatever will get you to hong kong, do it' because even he thinks God wants me there in the end. i think he's right, of course, but i'm a bit biased. i want it to be right. still, i'll work toward that end with all my might. if that means seminary, so be it. for now, i'll trust in the promises of Christ and submit myself to the elders of the church and seek wisdom with how i should proceed. it's quite simple. unsatisfyingly simple.
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