today was a nothing day, full of nothingness. christin was home sick, i slept most of the day, and we just didn't feel good in general. since last night, i haven't really been able to hear out of my right ear at all, but it comes and goes now. kind of annoying, actually. i did manage to go to the store and buy some stuff we needed, most notably tons of chicken for meals in the future. we're going to start to work on spending less on food because of the forthcoming money shortage. just preparing for that. i really need some consistent income.
if only video-making paid the bills. it seems to be one of the few things i'm good at. christin says i should look into making actual educational videos for use in curriculum, etc. but i really have no idea how i could do that. it would be great, really, but i don't know. i'd think i would have to make a name for myself before i could get into something like that, and that's kind of what i've been trying to do for the past few weeks now on youtube. working on promotion, which is a total bust. no help equals no promotion for me, because i can only spam my friends so many times.
really though, i guess i shouldn't be surprised that people in general aren't looking to help out with promotion, because there's nothing in it for them. short of the satisfaction of helping, i guess, but that doesn't seem to hold much in the way of currency these days. not many people get to do what they want in life and get paid for it, and we can't all do that. i just feel like i'm talented in this area, this and music [which i am utilizing in education as well], and i dunno. lots of people in those fields that don't have much talent are getting recognized, so i guess i feel like since i have talent i would have a chance. maybe. maybe not.
depressing blog is depressing. goodnight.
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