Dizzy Moose Rag

as you may or may not have noticed, the video didn't happen. i'll be putting one up tomorrow, just wasn't feeling it today as i thought i might not. it's so close to the beginning of the new year that i'd thought of re-launching my channel for its second year of activity, but since changed my mind on that because i feel that my viewership is too small for that to have any sort of effect. i don't know. i would love to take vlogging a bit more seriously, but i feel too disconnected from the world of those who engage in it actively. i've tried to become part of the team, but it just never feels natural. i'm not going to stop, i'm just not vying for exponential growth.

of course, i've been doing this dance with youtube for some time now, over the past year. i've gone from literally zero people watching to 237 subscribers [how many of those are valid is up for debate but there are way over 100 people watching regularly] which is something. i could promote harder or try more, i could be more consistent or pander to an audience to increase views, but i'm really just having fun. if it becomes a 'work thing' i don't think i'd want to do it as much. maybe it would. but i kind of don't want to put forth the enormous amount of effort [or hold out hope for the incredibly unlikely amount of luck] necessary to get to that point just to figure that out. but it's not like i'm totally ruling it out.

today was a lazy day, but i did a lot of thinking about video ideas and cleaned up around the house a bit. that was nice. progress! i ordered all of christin's books for school, well most of them at least, and mine as well. i'm finally 100% caught up on my youtube subscriptions, which is something i haven't been able to say for at least 2 months now. it feels good, but now i have less to watch, or at least listen to when playing wow, but that's what netflix is for, right? work was boring but felt short. hopefully tomorrow goes by just as fast, but i must say that i prefer closing to opening shifts. we'll see how it goes. goodnight.