Haymitch Abernathy

anger is an emotion i'm not particularly well-versed in either displaying or overcoming, but if i had to choose an emotion to match the day, anger would be it. i'm not so much angry right now, or i'd probably not be writing this, but i spent the majority of the day angry, insulted, frustrated, sad, confused, discouraged and depressed. of course it had to come right after one of the best days i've had in a long while, and after re-iterating a wonderful sermon in my previous blog post, the content of which would have been wise to consider during the day's events.

if i weren't a massive hypocrite, that is.

so i'm not going to get into it, but the basic gist of the situation is that christin's boss [who is also our landlord, and who also makes christin pay her end of taxes on top of paying her what amount to slave wages when all things are considered] is now forcing her to take another two weeks' vacation in december, this time without pay. which is against the law. since christin is a salaried employee, it is illegal to force a vacation when the employee is willing and able to work. but she is going to do it anyway, and basically make her make up 80 hours worth of work next year.

speaking of next year, on top of all this, she let christin know today that she's only going to have a job until next june. at that point, she plans to put the children in daycare [good luck with that, they bite, they won't last a week] and christin is basically s.o.l. so yeah. that's why i was angry. and i lied, i'm still angry about it, i'm just calm enough to explain it in text form, but doing so is causing the anger to return. we are now looking for a new job for christin and a new place to live because this situation is ridiculous, as well as looking for a job for myself.

though i feel at this point as though no one will hire me.

in my anger, i had to leave the house before i caused massive destruction to it, so i went to d.c. and rode the train in to the national mall. there was a youtube gathering slash acoustic concert there that i knew about, so i thought i'd check it out. it was cool, despite the fact that i was the oldest non-parent there and one of a handful of males. i got to chat with mike lombardo, a piano player and songwriter who did a competition with christin and i a year ago. he's a nice guy and i'll see him again if i do end up going to w00tstock. which i really want to.

so i came home, missed house and talked to christin while she was still awake. the tone was just generally depressing, so that didn't go too far. we don't know what we're doing. all i know is i'm in need of income, so i'm working on that. i applied to six more jobs tonight, on top of the four other jobs i applied to last weekend, so i'm hoping for some calls back tomorrow. we'll see how it goes. i also wrote some lyrics to a new song i'll probably write music for tomorrow, and i finished the video i recorded on saturday. it's about death, but it's not depressing. it'll be out this week.