Retro But Not Active

the concept of a king is pretty foreign to us freedom-loving democracy advocates in the u.s. today. back then, the king was the state, the representative of governance and the sole authority of the government. in the 20th psalm, we have an account of the people of God praying for their king, an act that was akin to praying for the country. i don't think it's necessarily the same as praying for the president, as he's not the sole figure in charge of the country, but it's got implications on how we should direct our prayers. in all things, we must rely on God.

church was good. set up our first actual meeting for membership [tuesday from 5-6] and asked for assistance for the incredibly great cost of registering my car, which pastor taylor had offered weeks ago. just now got the actual number, and really anything would help. i had a property claim for like $120 and the state of california sent me around $60, which should tell you something about the economic state of affairs in my former place of abode. yeesh. maybe it's an installment or something, that would be nice. yeah. that's all for today. gamestop tomorrow.

Treasurer Of The State

i slept for a good eleven or so hours today, or rather at least i laid down for that long. it was good for me, because now i feel good enough to go to church tomorrow. mission accomplished, as far as i'm concerned. so yeah! i've got church tomorrow, dropping off my application [and hopefully interviewing] at gamestop on monday, and an interview at sears on tuesday. is it weird to say that i hope gamestop hires me before i have to work at sears? i dunno, i've worked in a department store before, and i just have bad memories of it. upselling credit cards and 'special offers'. ugh. target memories.

but really anything at this point will be better than bringing home no paycheck. there's something to be said for going to work and taking something home that adds money to the bank account, even if it's small. receiving wages, getting what's coming to you, even though sometimes it doesn't seem like it matches the amount of work you put into it [and sometimes the amount of work people put into it doesn't match the amount they receive... i'm looking at you, politicians]. it's good. i miss that. christin is watching me type. i don't like that.

so yeah. i'm gonna stop typing now because christin is watching me, and i can't type with people watching me. but now she's not watching anymore, so i can type some more. there we go. good times railroad!!! tomorrow should be good. i miss church. i need to rub christin's feet, and tucker is not a packet of mayonnaise... just for the record, you know, in case you were wondering about that. the dog smells really bad, and she needs a bath. she also needs breath mints of some kind, because damn. just damn. and with that lovely parting thought, goodnight.

Vindicated!

so the still un-named mazda [we'll call him the negromancer for the sake of clarity] is now officially registered in the state of maryland. that's a huge weight off my shoulders, despite the fact that it cost me $240 plus all the other extra money i've spent getting it ready to be registered. hopefully our church will be able to help us with that, as they've offered to do so. in other news, i've got an interview with sears *grumble grumble* on tuesday, which is good, and i'm applying at gamestop and a few other places in the mall.

also, mimiron is hard. just sayin'.

tonight, after the mostly failed raid, christin and i watched something we didn't even know existed at all: the epilogue to 'lost'. it's a 12-minute short that details a bit about what happened after the last episode, you know, between jack plugging the big stupid cork and the unitarian universalist heaven 'ending'. it was neat to see some of the questions answered, and my favorite character [ben] featured. we still don't know why walt is special or what that means, but we now have some idea as to what happened to the kid. and in the words of shirley from community, 'aww... that's nice!'

i've been writing a bit, but nothing really serious. i haven't recorded anything either. i'm going to try and get a bit done next week, but if i get hired somewhere and start working, i probably won't be making a whole lot of progress on the recording front in the near future. we'll see, i guess. getting a paycheck again would certainly be nice, though. tomorrow, becky is going to come over and hang out while christin and i go through the crap in our closet and containers in search for the missing video card that's supposed to go in her computer. that should be interesting! then another raid night. yeehaw!

Epic Drugs

i feel sick, my head hurts, my day was wasted, i cried today for the first time in a long while. and that was not a real sentence. this won't be long. nostalgia is eating me alive. i'm sitting here at four in the morning, reading wikipedia articles about hong kong, wishing i were there and that i spoke cantonese fluently. i know i'll get back, i know. reading up on lost made me think of it somehow, and reading friends' posts made it even clearer. i don't like being here. this country is no longer home. i don't feel welcome here.

tomorrow i will be going to the mva to register my vehicle with money i don't have. next month i will be moving to a new place and i have no idea how we're going to manage the first month's rent when christin's paycheck from this month is being deducted for rent for this past month. i need a job, and at this point i'm going to be stopping by the mall to get something seasonal, just so we can make some progress financially. we need to be ahead, not behind. student loans are one thing, but debt from the past that just won't seem to die... that's a killer.

Yes, Only 2,267!

the title of this blog post is the number of digital downloads [assuming $1.00 single song downloads only] i would need to sell to pay off all of our debt. i think this is doable, and while i am unemployed, i think i'm going to put more effort into getting some songs written/finished, recorded and up on the bandcamp page i made for our band. yeah, christin and i have a band, didn't you know? we're called 'the perfect place' and we're awesome and you should listen to our music and download it. all 2,267 of you! preferably soon.

is this all a good idea? probably not. but at this point, it sure feels easier than finding someone who will employ my terribly under-experienced ass. it feels like the harder i try, the harder it becomes to even get calls/e-mails back from people who aren't trying to scam me. i'm going to keep at it, for sure, but it's just really, really frustrating. i'm hoping that even if i don't make a dime by selling the music i'm working on, the act of writing and producing it will serve to keep me sane. just thinking about our finances for the next two months is making me a bit crazy. bedtime.

Quantum Leopoldt

it's interesting that about three years ago, i wouldn't only have thought the picture below this was funny, i would've bought right into it and seen it as good advertisement for church. now i see it and consider it blasphemous and a clear violation of the second commandment. what a difference a day, a confession, and a firm grasp of reformed theology makes, eh? most people would look at that and say 'wow, you've gotten really uptight then. that's funny and eye-catching.' but i'd have to agree and disagree. the image is funny, that's for sure, but only as a caricaturization of how ridiculous the church has gotten. it's eye-catching, but in the wrong way.'

yeah, we saw that sign on the way to the movie theatre to see 'hereafter' yesterday, another movie about the afterlife that assumes some sort of ambiguous unitarian universalist heaven concept. the script was okay, the child actors were terrible, matt damon's character and the french girl were all well developed, but in the end i didn't feel like anything was accomplished. we made the unfortunate mistake of going into the wrong theatre at first and seeing the last 10 or so minutes before realizing our mistake. i should've known that the movie wouldn't start so random with no previews. ha! silly us.

after the movie, we came home and christin did some more 'exploration'. after she went to bed i picked up a bit of that as well, watched some youtube videos [i'm almost caught up] and tried my best to solo karazhan as an elemental shaman. that was interesting. a few of the encounters take a bit of time and strategy, like the big bad wolf. for that fight, my totems ended up doing most of the damage while i kited the boss in a little red riding hood costume and hit flame shock every time i was out of it. it was pretty funny. maiden is doable but too much work, i got up to curator and i'll probably finish the rest tomorrow.

note: faaaaail. left this window open again.

Dumb Sweater, Bro

today i bought and ate lots of candy, cleaned up a bit around the house, ran some errands for my lovely wife, made some amazing pasta and made this. it was good times. it's my mom's birthday today, and i called her and chatted for a while about my dad buying door handles on ebay. yeah, very exciting, i know. my head itches and i need a shower. that's gonna have to wait until morning. after all was said and done, i played some wow with my brother and rocked some battlegrounds that was good times as well. then schoolwork, ugh. one more week for this class!

i think my cat is only interested in sitting in the most inconvenient locations on my desk, like on top of my laptop or on top of my mouse, or in the space on my lap between my body and the keyboard. whatever will most seriously impede my ability to type is clearly her dwelling place of choice. if she weren't so cute, it would be easier to knock her off the desk and just keep going, which i do a lot of the time, especially when i'm playing games. but it's sad, and she usually just jumps right back on. she's a persistent little bugger, she is. but that's okay, i still love her.

tomorrow i think i'm going to call around to some local staffing agencies and get myself listed or get some applications or forms or whatever i need to start finding some work. it's getting a bit ridiculous, and i need to step up my game, yo. i also need to take care of my wild mane of hair, facial and otherwise. it's getting kind of out of control at this point, and i need a cut. i should most likely call my friend elyce, who owes me a haircut, or suck it up and pay some money to get it done by a pro. hmm. decisions. either way, i need some way of trimming my beard. that'll be a priority for tuesday, for sure. goodnight, internets.