Flipped Out Of The Pan

i don't like working mornings any more. i'm a terrible salesman and this job is shaping up to be like a sales job, which makes work much less fun. i do love my job, i love making drinks, and i'm good at motivating other people to stay on task and get stuff done. unfortunately, when it comes to 'making the sale,' i just don't have the heart. i hate salespeople. i hate being 'sold' something when i walk into a store, so i hate doing that to other people because i wouldn't want them to do it to me. tell me what drink to make and i'll make it; tell me who to motivate and i'll keep them working... but selling is not 'my thing.'

anyway, despite that little rant, i did have a good time at work today. sold a decent amount, even a couple boxes of chocolate [which always put our numbers up quickly], and it is nice to sell stuff. i'm just not good at going after people, especially when i feel like they don't want to be gone after. when i got home, i recorded and edited this, which i'm particularly proud of. i hope it gets passed around and lots of people like it. it's less on the educational spectrum of things, and more on the entertaining side, which i feel is important to gain some viewership. maybe it's not. maybe i'm doing it all wrong and i suck at youtube. i don't know anymore.

basically at this point, i'm just going to keep going because i enjoy making videos. i want them to be successful, but i really don't want to force it. i just keep hoping one day people are going to just like what i do enough to really promote what i'm doing and the right people will see it and... yeah. if i could make videos teaching english for the rest of my life, that would be the greatest thing in the world. so i'm going to try and make it happen, but without being too forceful about it. i already feel like i'm being too forceful, but maybe it's the same mentality that prevents me from selling well. maybe i'm too nice.

rtotd #0001: dancing in the kitchen.