Worrywart

i never knew that word was spelled with an 'a' until right now. interesting. today i made a thing, and that thing is this. you should probably check it out. tonight, i will be spending time with the wife after our super-exciting meeting of the minds at the workplace, and tomorrow, i will be working a weird shift. 1-8 or something, on a saturday. i hope it's busy. anyway, today was not busy and quite uninteresting, with the exception of the bit of time i got to spend filming when i got home. it was intense, and i came up with some good stuff off-the-cuff. good to know that i can still improvise decently, even with all this new gear.

the adjustment to real hd and an awesome camera/lighting setup is slow, but steady. i'm liking it, and i'm up to the challenge, but i really do put a lot more time into it. i also feel like, as my values increase production-wise, and as my content stays level or appreciates, my viewership remains somewhat stagnant. i don't really know what to do to push myself up. some of my friends are trying to help, that's for sure, but i just feel mediocre. i don't like feeling mediocre. i want to be great. i want to make videos that people say 'everyone needs to see this.' or at least, videos that people say 'so-and-so needs to see this.' i'd settle for that.