Varian Wrynn

i didn't win. sad news. sad day. lots of depression had today, but also lots of encouragement from a lot of folks and friends of mine who support me and are generally rad. my wife is a big one of those, and i love her very much. we had a great weekend, and it sucks to come back to something like this, but sometimes reality has to slap you in the face. i'm trying to rationalize it and make it seem like not a big deal, because i couldn't really afford to take two months off from work and the whole thing would be really bad timing and i'd miss my sister's trip out here... but who am i kidding? it still really sucks that i lost.

had my first day back at work, and i'm kind of excited that i have tomorrow off immediately after that. i actually found out that i had lost the contest last night, and spent about 2 hours confirming that i had actually lost and watching videos made un-private by the people who had won. it was really sad, and i actually did cry. mostly because i felt led-on by youtube because of the verbage in the e-mail i had received. i think i made the finals and just wasn't selected by the schools in the end. it's okay, at least my friend gretchen made it. she's awesome, her video was great.

anyway, because of that whole situation, i hadn't slept much which made working at 9am to open the store pretty tough stuff. working with tibet made it a bit better. she's funny. had a decent day at work, and headed back home to hang out with christin. she made me potstickers [comfort food of choice for me] and we caught up on community and the big bang theory. awesome times. that made me feel a lot better — my wife always knows how to comfort me and make me feel better when stuff like this happens. it'll be okay, but i feel like i'm sort of entitled to a few bad, depressing days now and then.