it seems like no matter how hard my wife works, she always ends up in jobs where she's treated poorly, underpaid or both. it feels right now like we will never get back to hong kong. there have just been so many disappointments, discouragements and even disasters keeping the two of us down that it's hard for me to be hopeful. i love it here, but i miss my friends and i miss working a real job and not feeling like i'm wasting my talent.
i haven't picked up drumsticks aside from just jamming on an electric drum kit in a store for almost a year. i haven't had a cantonese lesson yet, and my tutor hasn't gotten back to me. i make videos that get very few views and little help from friends to promote them. i just feel like i'm not doing anything worthwhile right now, and it makes me want to retreat from creativity, hide and not do what i love doing. i know, that's silly. of course it is. i shouldn't feel this way. but i do. i just do.
I hope everything works out for you both. I can totally understand and relate to what you're feeling right now. I think its been a good three years since I've touch a bass guitar. Praying for you guys and God bless.
ReplyDelete~Susan